Today, I’m 40

I’ve always said that I’m not such a fabulous writer. That being said, I wanted to do a little post about my birthday today.

I’ve been pondering on the fact that I was getting ready to turn 40 and that caused me to become a little more reflective on my life. I was married at 19, so my twenties started off with getting to know my husband. Heck, we were both babies and really had a lot of growing up to do. That meant mistakes, arguments, making up. My life changed forever when I asked Jesus into my heart. We lost two babies before finally having our beautiful, talented baby girl. Then, at 28 we got the horrible news that our mom had cancer and at 29 we buried her. My thirties brought some changes….actually, I think the beginning of my thirties were kind of a numbing blur because in June of 2003 we lost our dad to cancer. Pretty stinky way to start a decade, huh? It gets better though.

After dad died I found I was pregnant again, but lost the baby. It was really hard considering we had just lost our dad. I prayed and we decided to try one more time. In 2004 our little Emmalie was born. She was and is such a bright ray of sunshine and was the first good thing that had happened to our family.

The remainder of my thirties have been pretty awesome. I finally found something my heart sings at doing. I feel like I had been searching all this time for a job that was my “fit”. I know I have found it in photography. My husband and I will be married 21 years in May. Our relationship is stronger and more solid then it has ever been. Our girls are great and I love my life.

Since I entered into a new decade today, I bought (finally) a wireless trigger for my camera. I’ve been taking more candid shots lately with my cell phone of my girls and I and other things. I’ve been thinking more often about capturing me with my girls to document that I was here. My friend Danielle is my inspiration for this. She is capturing everything about her boys and her.

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Don’t mind the fact that I’m on the bed. My husband hates that, but that is the best light in the house. 🙂